Looking back !!!!

Looking back at my previous post.

Sucks that I feel(am) more stupid than before.

Cannot pinpoint what is making me sad. Or is it just the way I am? Hell no, I wasn't like this 3 years ago. 

What if I am choosing to be sad? 

Ohhh. 

Let's choose to be happy then. Result of this choice to be discussed after few days at this place

Decided to start writing this blog again. Knowing that nobody(very few) is gonna read read this makes me feel safer.

How are you going to use this blog now ???

(Talking in my head)

To keep track of progress(?) I make in days to follow.

Ok.Good.

Current Status of Subject : Depressed and diffident. 

Reason: Unknown. Too much guilt of making too much stupid decisions and thus mistakes maybe.

1.Having trouble understanding abstract ideas.

2.Feels bored and aloof all the time.

          3.Constant urge of having animal sex. Probably(Certainly) because of watching too much porn.
          4.Procrastinates every fucking time.

          5.Sleeping habits: Poor . Irregular schedule.

5.1 Poor physical health

          6.Study habits: Irregular

7.Attention Span: max. 3 minutes

8.Spare time activities: Browsing internet, Videos, Facebook, Twitter, Quora, Sleeping

9.What I have been wishing to do : Complete CFD course, Class notes, Go out with friends more often.

Prepare for engg Aptitude exam. Days left. 3 months 20 days. Project work.

10.Any productive things done in last 3 months/ Skills Learned: Blog about rockets and missiles, Update of another blog, project work. Solar cooker. Completed one subject of engg. apti exam. Started PP and control.

*****Next 1 month target: CFD complete course work, Other class subjects. 3 more engg apti. subjects.

Wishes:

Learn Keyboard before 2016 anyhow.

QM course(Supplementary mathematics)

Action plan for achieving this.

Required feels : 

Happiness(I am choosing to be happy),

Stay away from sad thoughts.(Choose to think about good things)

Stay away from porn for a while. 

Deleted 20 GB porn premium collection just after writing this. No wait. Yeah done.

From point 1 to 10, possible solutions

1.Try Feynman method for understanding abstract ideas. 

2. Listen upbeat music.Dance.Exercise every time sad thoughts try to enter your mind. 

3. Emotions are more important. Sex with someone you don't love is pathetic and not good(for me).

4.Just stop procrastinating. Use timer.

5. Continuous sleep of 7 hours. Sleep before 1 o'clock in a critical situation. 12:30  in a mild critical situation and 12:00 everyday.

5.1 Start exercise in the morning. and eat fruits and goo food.

6. Remove all distraction from the room. Turn laptop off if not required.

7. Mediation and yoga for 30 minutes in the morning.

8.Stop using Facebook too much.Only once a day at night.Reduce it to weekends later. Start contributing on Quora on relevant subjects and topics.

Use Youtube when required. Stop watching cat videos.

9. Suhas Patankar, Anderson. 

10. Carry on the blogs. Design models in creo for the blog. Start updating Rocket blog.

Continue project work. 

Action plan is too much optimistic. Solid dedication and sacrifice of self-gratification activities is the answer as far as I am concerned.

Play game for next 30 minutes.

After that one subject of exam.

Period.

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